Updated: Feb 7
Who am I?
What is it that I do?
What services do I provide?
How do people find me?
What do I want to be known for?
The questions that have been overwhelming my brain for a while now. They never seem to end. Advice coming from here and there. But still, these questions linger. Creating doubt within me. Who do I listen to?
I love my business. I love what I have created. I love sharing my story. I love teaching women the importance of sharing their stories. I love the behind the scenes, real and raw truths of the women and businesses that I meet.
I began my love of writing at the age of 9. Poetry, letters, short stories. I did it all. I was a penpal with my great-grandma for years before she passed away. I wonder if I still have those letters. Writing never truly failed me except for when I stopped doing it.
That’s why I made it my business. I have always dreamed of becoming a writer. Writing was my pathway to self-love. Writing was my pathway of figuring out who I wanted to become and who I am still becoming. I never imagined that I would be an entrepreneur. I always had a plan that I would be a working outside of the home mom. A mom that would climb the ladder of success a day at a time doing something that I loved. Being here today, working from my computer, I wonder what it would be like to be that mom. And then seconds later, I know that I can’t give up what I do because it is so much me that I can’t see where I begin and where my business starts. The entrepreneur struggle. At least that’s what I call it.
Trying to combine the 2 parts of my business that are completely different has been challenging. Yesterday it was suggested to me that I split them up. Completely shift and have 2 different areas. I thought about it but it doesn’t feel right to me. It feels like I would be once again giving up and failing. Not failing in a bad way but not allowing myself the growth that I am supposed to be having.
If this all sounds confusing my apologies. That is why this is called the undecided entrepreneur. Where do I go next? I feel like I have made so much progress the past couple weeks and now I am standing in front of another roadblock wanting to throw my hands in the air and say, “Fine I get it. I’m over it.” Then trying to walk away but my feet are stuck because I can’t walk away. I can’t leave a piece of me behind and keep moving. I have done that too many times in the past and that is a sacrifice that I am not willing to make again.
MY BUSINESS, MY LIFE, MY STORY
Teaching women is a priority for me. Writing for myself and for others is a priority for me. Healing as part of my journey is a priority for me. I’m not sure I can decide which one is the top because they are all equally important. I know that I will figure this out. I know that every entrepreneur faces this at some point. I know that there are so many women out there waiting to hear my message, my story, what I offer, and who I am. Today I am going to keep my business the same. Maybe that is a mistake. Maybe those who follow me will unfollow me and I have to be okay with that. I am not a 1-dimensional person and my business isn’t either.
So, for now, I will teach. I will continue to write for myself and for others. I will continue to share my story and remind women that they are not alone. I will continue to advocate for self-care and self-love while sharing my journey. With all of this, I will work on what I call myself (currently freelance blogger) and I will work on my pitch. I will create my business with my vision in mind. To keep up with all of the AMAZING things that I do, follow me on my business page. There is so much coming up that is truly going to change your life and you don’t want to miss it.